I realize that I should be studying for my chemistry test or reading for English, but of course that isn’t what I’m doing at all. Oh, if only these subjects were actually interesting and I had teachers I like..
So I’m going to try and put together an outfit that doesn’t completely suck. I realize that because I prefer sleeping to looking decent I don’t try very hard in the mornings on school days. It’s usually just a pair of jeans, whatever shirt I get out of my closet and a pair of chucks. I love fashion so much, but I never put it into action because I don’t have time. I don’t do my makeup for school because I’d want it to be just right but I need those 10 extra minutes to sleep. (mainly because I barely sleep during the dark hours of the night.)
I’ll post my “style icons” as soon as I find some. haha. Goodnight tumblr, maybe?
10 Thing’s You Want For Christmas: -acoustic guitar. -record player. -digital camera. -sewing machine. -new ear buds/head phones. -black macbook pro. -lap desk. -funky/colorful makeup. -new winter coat. -berets/hats.
9 Musicians/Bands You Love: -Fall Out Boy. -The Maine. -The Format. -The Cure. -fun. -All Time Low. -Connor Oberst. -Elliot Smith. -Motion City Soundtrack.
8 Things You Do Everyday: -Eat. -Think. -Complain. -Listen to music. -Breathe. -Something internet related. -Sing, whether it be aloud or in my head. -Sleep.
7 Things I Enjoy: -Music. -Writing. -Reading. -Listening. -Photography. -Inspirational quotes. -Long talks about anything and everything.
6 Things That Will ALWAYS Win Your Heart: -Fall Out Boy. -The Maine. -Music in general. -Harry Potter. -Guys who are great with kids. -People trying to make a difference.
5 Favorites: -Color: Black/Silver -Movie: Anastasia/Now&Then/Tristan+Isolde -Band: Fall Out Boy/The Maine -Author: J.K Rowling/John Green -Candy: Twin Twizzlers (the kind you get on Halloween) or Airheads.
4 Smells You Enjoy: -Artificial watermelon. -Cucumber Melon. -Something familiar, like a certain person’s house or clothes. -Dove soap.
3 Place You Want To Go: -Australia. -Tokyo. -London.
2 Holidays You Love: -Christmas. -Halloween.
1 Person You Would Marry On The Spot: -Kennedy Brock/John O’Callaghan/Matt Flyzik/Shia Labeouf/..probably anyone crazy enough to marry me. EDIT: I don’t think I’d marry anyone on the spot, but I’m crazy, so who knows.
Of course the questions that ask for a limited number answer I have 78439202 answers and the questions that ask for a list, I sit and think about one more thing to add to the list for 68790 hours.
are fucking blowing up my newsfeed intensely. It’s insane and because of that I don’t go on facebook as much anymore. All i see when I go to my home page is social interview and so so became fans of or joined the group (insert name here). It’s just getting ridiculous.
However, I’ve realized that seeing all these people become fans of or join the same groups shows how alike we all really are. The people who hate hearing their voice recorded, the ones who walk in circles while they talk on the phone, and the ones who hate when the seat in front of them doesn’t have a basket. What we think are little pet peeves or idiosyncrasies are in fact pretty common. It just goes to show that we all have these habits in common although we may think we are the only ones. So I think that’s awesome, but get the fuck outta my newsfeed!
So I didn’t end up getting tickets to last night’s OP tour show, and although I was very upset (yes, tears were shed; seriously, hatemyself?) I still had a really good day. Bowling with Cobra was so awesome. Nate, Ryland, Vicky-t and Suarez bowled with everyone, going to different lanes and talking with the winners. I got to talk to each of them at least for a moment. Meanwhile Gabe mostly played games with my two friends intensely stalking him? haha. I had such a good time. I didn’t take many pictures though (but my few and ones I steal off my friends will be posted sometime later this week), because although it’s exciting to be in the presence of “famous” people/bands I really like, I also don’t think they’d appreciate the cameras in their face all the time. When Cobra first walked into the bowling alley every single person rushed over to take pictures. I prefer talking to band members rather than pictures. I mean, in the end, they’re all just people, and I feel like I should try and treat them that way. Also, I hate bothering/interrupting people. Gabe was surrounded by a group of people the entire time while he was playing games and so I’d go over there hoping to ask for a picture but he’d be amidst a game or another group of girls decided to just speak up and get pictures when clearly I had been waiting, so in the end I just gave it up. I didn’t want to wait around too long and leave our lane empty (it tended to be empty quite often because my group, Nicole, Ashley, and Camilla), so I would just bowl alone and talk to the other band members. I even got Suarez and Ryland to talk to my cousin Tina on the phone. This was so amazing, spending time with a band I’ve known from the beginning. I may not have continued following throughout their entire career, but I do enjoy Cobra Starship so much and love all the members.
I know I would have loved to have actually gone to the concert last night, but it’s okay that I didn’t. I was lucky enough to see Cobra perform on their Hot Mess Across the U.S tour, and I saw A Rocket to the Moon on their mini headliner, or the Northeast/LoveLikeThis is OnYourSide tour, as I like to refer to it as. So out of the three bands I’d specifically go to the show for (Maine, Cobra, Rocket) I have already seen 2/3 and I will make sure of seeing The Maine any time possible. There will be a next time for me to see these bands, and I shall capture that moment.
Anyway, instead of the concert I decided to go to my friend Kelsey’s house. I was a little unsure of what I wanted to do yesterday. I was a mix between let’s party and I wanna sleep for 1000 hours. I ended up going to Kelsey’s although I did take a power nap there, haha. It was nice to reconnect with my friends that I haven’t hung out with in so long. Also I realized that if I didn’t take this opportunity to hang out I probably wouldn’t be asked to hang out as much anymore.
Basically, my night didn’t go exactly as I had hoped but it was still pretty awesome and fun.
will be a good day. my friend ashley won a radio contest and gets to go bowling with cobra starship and i’m one of her guests, yay! However, i’m a little sad at the fact that i do not actually have tickets to the show, but they are giving away a pair of tickets to the show, so that means i just have to hope and pray and make luck somehow on my side so i can go? and if not, i’ll try to buy one off the winner? ahhh, if everything goes as planned it will be a great day. hmm, guess we’ll just have to see.
Today I retook my driver’s test and passed with a 91, thank god! It was so much easier this time. The examiner didn’t freak me out. He actually talked to me about art and it definitely eased my nerves. So that’s definitely a breath off my shoulder. I’m still without a car, but that’s okay.
Today was parent/teacher conference night and as a student council member it was my responsibility to be there and I was. Our advisor who is also a former teacher confronted me about how I was acting distant and whatnot. And the truth is, I have been. There has been a progression of my reevaluating of my life and where I want it to take me. My true desire is not to go to college right after high school. I want to do something exciting with my life. I have a desire for music, to write and to travel. I might not have this drive for a cause bigger than myself and this small town in the future. I feel like school will be there in the end when this feeling might not be. But I don’t think people understand that. It’s hard to (in other people’s eyes) suddenly veer away from a path that seemed so secure, but the truth is, it never was secure. For the most part it was a safe route, but danger does lie within it. I’ve got a mind that can change along the way. I can’t promise I’m not going to make any mistakes, but I want to do something because I have true passion.
I sent out my 6 page letter to an old friend today too. She moved at the end of 6th grade to Tennessee. We haven’t written letters to one another for so long, and it was awesome to get a few letters from her. I was honestly the happiest I had been in a long time. It was nice, sort of going back to a time where I was a little more carefree and I had this feeling of “doing something bigger” for the world (which is where I am now I guess, although it isn’t nearly as easy as it was back then.).
the feeling of innocence i had when i was younger.
as a kid you’re always way more carefree. there is nothing to hold you back from doing whatever you want to do. you feel like you’re invincible, and nothing can touch you. then you get older and life gets in the way sometimes. but just because you’re not innocent anymore doesn’t mean you’re guilty.
I shouldn’t be making my first post at the moment. In fact, I shouldn’t be on tumblr at all. I’ve got a shitload of homework that of course I’m procrastinating on, that’s nothing new. Anyway, I guess I’ll be using this blog as a medium to document whatever the hell is going on with me. I can’t promise it’ll be exciting or regular, actually, I can guarantee that it’ll be boring and not periodical. But this is the truth, it’s life, and it’s mine.