There are many things I don’t understand that have or are happening in my life. However, one thing I’ve learned is that over analyzing the past doesn’t do me any good. Sure I may be able to justify why some things happened the way they did, why I acted the way I did; but in the end, it doesn’t change the situation or how it played out. I can only hope that I’ve learned for the future .. which would be now.
I can’t quite put into words how I’ve been feeling lately. In some respect things have been great. In others not so much. Between friends, work and my own personal thoughts, I can’t really make up my mind. I’ve been feeling a lot of things, and I don’t know exactly why. It seems like the stupidest actions and most trivial remarks from the wrong people can set me over the edge, and I am not nice when I am upset or angry. And lately, I feel like I’m always in a bad mood and I don’t like it.
I just don’t know what actions to execute or words to say to make things better right now. And sometimes I wonder if it’s worth it or not. There’s no way going around this. Either I say exactly what’s on my mind and someone’s getting hurt or I’ll ignore it and everything falls apart.
It’s a difficult world out there, out of my mind.