I mean with anyone; that you somehow cannot let yourself open up and connect with people? No matter what you do you can’t cross that line and be yourself 100% around the people closest to you. You can’t give/expose yourself to them the way they do to you.
I used to feel that way sometimes. But I’m moving, if not have already, moved passed it.
But what hurts is being on the other side. Everyone wants to feel important at least once in awhile. Why are you number one if I’m number two? Sensing that your mind is racing and I’m right here, always with open ears that never hear anything, ouch. I’ve let you see me, let you know me. So if you know me, show me. It’s definitely not fair feeling like the person who puts more effort into a relationship than the other. Am I not worth the same effort in return? How is it okay for things to be on your terms at all times? Compromise is key. You get what you give. I tell myself a lot of the time, to take the high road, not to stress or over think situations that in another light seem insignificant. But there’s also a distinction between petty and repetitive situations. How do you know when to let go of something because you deserve better? Is the situation really that important where it must result in the loss of a special, meaningful relationship? When do you call it quits, and when do you continue taking the high road, ignoring what bothers you because it is “insignificant” or will “blow over” ?